Sad Days

The time has come for me to give up everything,
The time has come for me to say i Dowant,
I feel sad, I feel that i cant take it anymore, all this while i was trying to hold everything up,
but i just cant, there is up to one level only i can take everything...
All this while, i thought that i was the everything, but today i realize, that I am not,
How can i be with him when i am not as important as others to him?
I feel lonely now,
I feel unwanted,
I feel useless,
How can he treat me this way?
How can he have the heart to do like this to me?
If thats the question, I should be asking myself weather he has a heart or not!!!
All this while, i tought i can take the hurt, but today, when i was left unwanted,
I couldnt take it already...
When i asked him, he said "i was waiting for you to call me"
Why must i make the first move everything??
Itz always me.,,, sometimes i think that he should make the effort to do so.
Life,
what am i suppose to do now?