ChartNexus

ChartNexus has now become a part of my life.
I have never ever worked in a company where the people are so friendly and caring.
My bos especially, so nice, he even bought orange juice for all of us so that we dont get sick.
Jeslin, is the best person that i have ever worked with before. She is young, talented, patient, not strtict, very good in teaching.
She also gives me the courage and always tells me that i can do it.
Unlike other boses who asks, you can do it or not.
This what makes me like working in ChartNexus.
I also realize that people there are not racist. Being the only Indian working there,
they are not racist and kiasu at all.
I just love working life especially working there..
We all get a laptop to do our work.

How fun can working be?
Birthday celebration parties, free food when there are courses....
Wow!

St. Anne's

My family believes in St.Anne so much so, that they always go to St.Anne
for the feast week.
St.Anne is the grandmother of Jesus and she is the patron saint.
Without her there would have not been Mary and then there would have not been Jesus.
I went to St. Anne, in believe, i have heard miracles has happened in the name of St.Anne.
People pray for things and they thier prayers are answered.
I prayed, and i am hoping for Her to answer my prayers.

Just dont understand!

Well, What do people want these days?

There is one side where,

My b***** cousin is trying to get to my XBF....

I just dont understand from what she has transformed to what.....

And its just so hard for me, especially, when i think that my own sister is in it!

I hope he knows what is best for both of us...

And i wont be ashame to admit it, I dowant both of them to get togather,

I Just cant accpet both of them to be togather...

He will know that...

I hope he realizes that...

All this while when i use to go out with him,

I just realized that the reason she never spoke to him was because, she did have feelings for me.

And she being who she is, is just a damn blady perasaan specis on this world!

How could they do this to me????

Human this days, I am just finding it hard to understand them!

Who only she didnt want,

When she tried to tell my sister that her bf keeps on looking at her,

My sister didnt realize that at that time...

My aunty should be happy!!!

Since she always liked him the most, and now he daughther is interested in him!

Direct contact!!!

It saddens me, when i hear that both of them is in it togather.

I just cant take this pain.......

Apart from that, i am going through another pain where,

Itz just pure pain and i cant bear it.

He is hurting me sooo much that i just cant bear the pain at all.

Patty patty issues are becoming the world biggest problem between us.

I think becoming single is my desire right now..

One gal, who is the gal might be interested in my X,

keeps on challenging me stuff in Facebook...

I have no idea what she is up to

and what she is trying to prove.

But i hope she is not trying to compete with me lar.!!!!

Again, i just dont understand all of this!

Today you will be with me in paradise

This words were taken from the holy bible.

So what does this mean?

Pasadise to me is where i will have never ending happiness.

right now, right here, this is not where my happiness is truly is,

Every single day i am being fooled by people,

well, sometimes i question myself and ask, weather i am a fool or not,

Hope not!!

If i care, i will not be happy, i think i should learn not to care!

Total Lost!

Sometimes we regret that when that the person is not there or that something is not there anymore, you feel the lost.
Sometimes i feel lonely and lost and also empty...
But what is gone is gone.......
The trust is gone, the being is gone, and it will never come back.
It may be hard to move on with whatever is there, but that life?
This is reality, and sometimes the truth may hurt,
While the truth hurt, feelings and emotions too are being hurt.
Certain actions that an individual does, by purpose or not,
May or may not hurt another individual, but if i dont tel it out,
that individual may not know, what he or she is doing hurts me or not!!!!
But thats who i am, i dont tel things out, directly to the person,
"What you are doing hurts me"
But i keep in my small little heart and it stays there forever,
It remains a secrect........ Coz there is going to be consequeces if i say something
If i tell that what u are doing hurts me......

The individual may tell me who are you to tell me that?

Sensitivity, that explains about me.

For you, whatever you do, and if ur happy with what ur doing then i am partially happy for you.
I wont tell you how i feel with ur actions and what you do....
Coz i certainly dowant to direct your life, its ur own life
Live it the way u want it okay. And being happy and satisfied with ur life is important!

But remember that i always care for you. I will be there for you no matter what.
I want to be a part of ur life, but if the situation doesnt allow, i will move on.

Life is life, be it the way u want it to be. Follow ur mind and not ur heart.
Sometimes ur heart will react to emotions.......
Hope that ur life will be better than mine.... It has always been...


Always there for you,
Brenda.

Langkawi

HAHA


Finally i went to langkawi,
Nice place, went crazy shopping there....
certainly a nice place to shop shop and shop.....
The beach was superb......
Perfume shops was amazing, chocolates selling soooo cheap..
But the breakfast sucked big time.....
I enjoyed.... And the best part was, my parents let me drive a CAR THERE IN LANGKAWI!!!!!
Thats triple and double triple AMAZING!!!!!
They never let me drive!
HAhahahahaha

LIFE!!!!!

Sometimes i am sad
Sometimes i am happy
Sometimes i am drowsy
Sometimes i am moody
Sometimes i am scared
Sometimes i am worried

Sometimes i Regret
Sometimes i Fear
Sometimes i Doubt
Sometimes i Give up
Sometimes i Give in
Sometimes i think
Sometimes i Dont

I am always giving in, I am always being a person who is obeying everyone.
I am not living my life the way i want it to be.
I am listening to what everyone else wants me to do except for my own heart and mind.

Sometimes i wonder, did God make me so that i follow how that person wants me to be?

Why should i care,
Why should i fear
Why should i worry?

WHY WHY WHY?????

Why cant i be myself?
Make my own mistakes
Learn from my own mistakes?

Life is made by god, and i can only live in it once,
I wanna make my own mistakes and live life up to the fullest.
I am done of making all those stupid mistakes,
I wanna be the way i am.
Being the original of me.

I wil make the changes in me.
Life is short, and i certainly dowant to waste it!