Relationship

When two people, a gal and a guy is in a relationship,
does it like sound so fun? is relationship meant to be fun?
Well, people say, there are ups and downs in a relationship, but what if there is more downs
then ups?
isnt relationship has to have a balance of ups and downs?
I would really dream to have such a relationship, but i dont,
lucky people deserve such a relationship, as for me, i am a very unlucky person,
i get some ups time in my relationship, but for a person like me,
thats not enough, i feel that i deserve better, but how to
leave a relationship without getting hurt, i just dont wanna go thru more hurt,
i dont wanna hurt the other person, being with me is a great thing for that person,
being with him is also a great thing for me, but what happens when things change,
i feel like just getting out from everything and running away,
i feel like giving up everything, going somewhere, cry cry cry and cry for a long period of time
and then come back to life (reality)
when i come back to reality itz will hurt of course,
stupid mistakess causes heartbreaks,
but why doesnt people understand that?
How many times will they repeat their stupid mistakes?
I am just so fed up with that,
Just when i tot he understands me the best, and he is going to be there for me and with me
forever and ever, thats when he has to change things areound us
make more stupid mistakes...........
LIFE!!!!