Kya Life Hai!!!!!!!!

Sometimes when i am upset i just look up and  Ask Why me?

Most of the time I dont get my answers!!!!

I think to myself why has god Planned all this for me????

I dont like my LIFE BEING CONTROL!!!!

I dont know why God gave me a life, Why? 

Why did God gave me a life for others to control???

At home i have no peace!!!

Outside  i have no peace!!!

In the Past there was someone to control me,

 now too someone to control me...

The funny thing is my parents are not the one who is controlling....

Parents who are controlling me, not to that extend where someone one else is controlling me...

Betrayal at home....

Is this what i should expect from a sibling!!! 

 A sibling whom i sooo trust, the one and only sibling!

Is a Droghi!!!! Batu Api!!!

The one and only place where i Reli Enjoy is with my close friends.

My B3 Friends....

The Speaky gang...

I dont feel at peace anywhere else..

I dont feel my home is the best place to be anymore.

No where is the best place for me to be execpt college.

In college although there are people i dont talk to, its not betrayal and control.

My friends dont control me whom i should talk to, to whom i shoud be with and everything.

Elsewhere................. no comments!!!!!

Read between the lines.

I pray for a peacefull life...

Or is it by staying single i would be happy? Should i remain being single?

Gosh, Decision nowdays are just sooo hard to make.....

Miserable Days!!!

I am not experiencing the miserable days of my life.....

Holidays has been sooo miserable for me...

Sometimes i just wish that i could pack my bags and go somewhere...

Anywhere will do..

I wish that i was not just seating at home and mengeram telur....

HaHAHAH....

The Best CONCERT!!!

I have never been to a praise and worship concert before.... 

but on the 25th of April 2009

marks the best, awasome concert that i have been to before. 

That day will be in my diary forever....

OLL must be proud to have Prodigal Appostle's , so as CDM, I am soo proud that

one of the band members in the Prodigal Appostle's is actually from CDM.... 

cool or not.

The concert Rocked... Well when you have the Pro's playing wouldnt it be? 

it was the higlight of the show. I have never ever 

in my life enjoyed praising Jesus @ God in my life. 

The truth is, i never thought  that praising God would 

be superb and amazing, till i went for this concert.... 

With all my strength, i too join in the crowd 

of approximately 500 youths from all over and jumped in and praised GOD. Singing to the almighty one. 

The praise and worship concert really was an eye opener. Gave me ideas, and i felt that i love singing tooo..... Although i know that i dont have a good voice... LOL....

But so what, Jesus doesnt care weather i have a good voice or not, 

I am taking the initiative to do it, i am taking the initiative to praise him, 

I am not doing it for the name and fame!!!!!!!!

My redeemer lives in me...

I will not let the fire from the rally fade of in me...

I will keep the fire burning....

Feel sooooo semangat to serve the youths OF CDM....

HAHA

Australia Hillsongs Lyrics

B3

Another semester gone just like that with my most 5 best friends.....

Assignments, Poster Defense, Teasing, Advising, Lepaking (eating indo mee), Stress, Stay Over,

Eating Eating Eating....., Exams, Tutorials, Lecture, Pontenging Class, Level 9 room...

Uninvited......

As time pass by, i feel a strong bond among us, 

Haha... well what to do? Bangsa Bangsa bersatu... has become the most important part of my life.

Everyday i go to colg what i look forward is for all of us to be there togather, to attend class, to makan togather and to lepak at the mamak togather.

Studying is besides the point!

I have never loved Help sooo much, the reason i love going to help nowday, is because of my best friends.....

In 30 mins someone could give advise (which Valerie tought wasnt a good advise)...

In the begining of the year, i tought that my new year was bad, i tought that i would have a bad year this year....

I have never expected soo much of fun, and i feel like this is the best year of my life.

One day, i will feel that this are the "Days of Our lifes" we shall all walk through our memory lane.

This people, has requested to make my 21st bday party theme a bollywood theme....

how would this match with my pool party?

We shall make a way!!!

B3 Boleh!!! 

HAHA

I hope u guys saw that... B3 Boleh.... LOL

My worst eXperience.

After such a long time, i felt that i actually experienced anxiety!!...

It all started with tuesday night, i ate my dinner, and after a few hours, i drank coffee!!!Sometimes i feel that after drinking nescafe i actually have stomach problem. The only coffee that i drink i dont have any problems would be bio cafe from Aifaa house... hahaWell, i didnt get much sleep and the next morning i woke up nausea and weired feeling in my mouth....Haihz, next morning was the worst morning of my life. I was practically in HELP toilet for more that 30 mins.... yucks yucks....Anyways. what a day, i didnt even sit for my exams.. that worries me till now... What a holiday for me man!!!!Damn Damn.....

Mean People......

Why are people mean at times? why should people be very mean at times?

In a place where we practice faith, and suppose to 

"forgive and forget" everything, people ae competing among each other,

why, why, and why? I ask the Lord,

Why did he bring me to this place, where it creates a lot of hurt of me.....

In a place, a sacred and holy place, politics are being practiced, 

why??

Im so hurt with what is going on at this place, and at times, i rely feel like giving up,

i question my lord, why did he choose me to be herE? why did he bring me here?

He should have had a reason for putting me here in this place, 

but what was his reason?

To get hurt every other time, someone passes sacarstic remarks?

Haihz......